Teenage Years

One thing that has really been bothering me lately is the idea that I'm missing out on my teen years. These are the years i’m supposed to go out with friends and i'm still able to afford making mistakes without too much consequence on my life. Except i've based my whole entire life around being a good student and a good kid and a good employee, I never thought once to do something out of my comfort zone. The most out of my comfort zone I’ve accomplished is just trying to find a new job. I’ve been so hyper focused on getting good grades so that I can get a job that I never once thought about actually doing something with my life outside of school, i've literally just quite recently found a hobby that is not school related.

I was talking to my mom yesterday and she was talking about how much fun she had as a teenager in Belgium, and all the discos she attended, and how the whole school was friends with each other. I just sat there listening wishing that I had lived my teenage life differently even though I haven't even turned 18 yet. I just have to keep reminding myself that this is only the beginning of my life and I have so many experiences yet to live ahead of me.

I think this time especially is hard with the pandemic because you're not only worried about the virus, but you’re worried you’re wasting your life inside. Don’t get me wrong, I am so thankful every single day that I have a healthy family and that we don’t have to worry about anything other then staying inside, I just feel like i've been missing something recently.